Today I am feeling some pretty incredible VIBES… I am receiving an incredible flow of love, strength and good wishes. My body feels strong… my heart is full… I feel ready… blessed… HAPPY… CRAZY HAPPY… READY to continue getting ready. I am on an amazing journey right now and want to experience every GOOD thing that comes my way.
I am more patient TODAY than I have been lately~
On this journey…I have met so many wonderful people… I have heard stories, shared food, seen views that are heaven like~ so surreal~
It wasn't easy:
Calling it quits was not easy…
It's never easy to do…
But in honoring me – I honor you~
If you think I'm gonna blog about us~ I WON'T
If you think I blame YOU~ I DON'T
What we had was OURS
What I gave~ is YOURS
What I received~ I WILL CHERISH
TODAY IS A NEW DAY~
I am grateful I can still be LIGHT after a break up~
What tends to happen during a break up - - or what has happened to me in the past is that I allow my self to FALL APART… I become paralyzed. I lose focus, my footing, I lose track of ALL THAT IS IMPORTANT TO ME - - I allow the sadness to consume me.
But not this time~ TODAY I AM A BUTTERFLY~
This time yes there were tears… yes there was sadness… yes there is something missing… that something special – that SOMEONE SPECIAL… HER VOICE~ HER EYES~
That someone you wake up thinking about – AND THEY ARE THE FIRST PERSON THAT COMES TO MIND – THE FIRST CALL YOU WANNA MAKE - - THE FIRST VOICE YOU WANNA HEAR.
Its wonderful to love that way… so when the relationship ends - - sometimes we are LEFT… with ALL THAT FEELING and we don't know where to put it. We don't know what to do with ourselves. We don't know what we'll do without them. We feel like we have nothing without that person. That somehow when they LEAVE – they take the LOVE with them… that's not the case… while something is missing… the love I have – the love I gave - - is STILL INTACT… is still at HOME~
Do I feel empty?
Do I feel broken?
Do I feel lost?
NOT TODAY… that's not at all how I feel. I feel incredibly full. I can find beauty in the sadness. I can find HOPE in the ALONENESS… and I my FAITH… my faith is strong.
LAST WEEK WAS HARD… I was in a lot of pain… I was completely drained - - and eventually when I post those videos you see how much like shit I really looked ☺ but ALL IS GOOD… THE UNIVERSE IS GOOD TO ME… ALWAYS AND ALWAYS…
In licking my wounds…my wings are healing… this butterfly is soaring… I still have much work to do and I realize I am not ready for a relationship. I am not done with me yet…
So to that person… thank you for coming into my life~
To that person… I thank you for being apart of my unfolding~
Thank you for being apart of my learning~
I will continue to get ready~
I found this in an old blog I wrote: "Personal Legend Pt. 4: The Unfolding"
This is how I feel today… like I have always known what I want… I may not always know how I'm gonna get there… but I always believe all I desire will be mine. My life unfolds right on time – EVERY TIME~