I can feel my heart beating
It's in my breathe
I can see the pulse
In my neck
Urgency…
FUEGO
This urgency
Of things
To be released
My heart is racing….
There is so much I want to say and write today~
So much to say ABOUT the things that are consuming and draining me…
I'm feeling all kinds of emotions…
I feel like my thoughts are coming to me at warp speeds…
STOP
BREATHE
RELEASE
I just got back from going for a ride with a woman who is on her way to the airport… she is on her way to bail out, rescue, care for -- yet again be there for a man who has spent most of their relationship putting her through a living hell.
HE her son… a son who is torturing her… a son who has no regard for HER or respect for women.
He was stabbed several times~
But she'll be there~
And who
Who's the one?
On the way
To save you
To come
To YOUR rescue
And be
By YOUR side
A woman
It's always a woman
The daughters~
It's the women who are there
It's the women who heal
It's the women who give birth
Its they who will be there
It's the women who give
In the END
To the END
I see right through you~
"You didn't think I'd come back
You didn't think I'd show up with my army
And this ammunition on my back"
- Alanis Morissette
Here's the thing~
I see right through you
The other thought that has my mind racing is that I have been accused of writing in metaphors with fancy colors and beautiful landscapes… so I've been challenged to serve my shit straight up… shaken not stirred…
You never said one positive thing to me about her - - one of my DAUGHTERS - - all you did was point out and express how flawed and damaged she was/IS… DAMAGED GOODS that you don't know what to do with or even care to LEARN HOW TO… a special kind of gift that you choose to ignore and should cherish.
To ignore
To ignore
You ignore
Her silent cries
But I can hear YOU my daughter~
You believe
that she will learn
the error of her ways…
AND YOU'RE SO RIGHT…
No thanks to you she will be forced to…
LEARN ON HER OWN
She has NO OTHER CHOICE
Let's be clear
I'm not the girls you have fooled with your words.
You may fool some people some of the time
But not me…
Not this time~
Believe me - - people DO get to a place where they stop being fooled and foolish.
See some may fall for it
And I may be many things
But a fool just ain't ME
ME - I'm NOT the one….
So today's WORDS - -
this love letter that I write…
these words for today….
this message…
Is to inform YOU
that I
I see right through you~
See she's too young
to defend herself
and she may be afraid
to stand up to you
but ME…
Not ME~
I see right through you
And I tower
Me
I am NOT AFRAID~
To let you know
That I
KNOW and that I
I see right through you~
Here's the thing
You use
Oh - - those beautiful words
YOU USE
To capture
To manipulate
To control
Claiming to love…
I see right through you~
BUT,
Just so we're clear…
Make no mistake
Let's not get it twisted
So there's NO CONFUSION…
Today what I write
Is not for YOU
THESE WORDS
They are for HER
The little girl
With deep eyes and no smile.
My daughter
See while you are so busy playing games - spending time on your fancy prose I see right through you.
I have words for you…
I have words that do not come from children's books…
And my words
They pack a mean left hook~
"A vocabulary for days bitch…" – Chris Crocker
AND SO WHAT
BE MAD
THAT I cut our time short
I too have words
But these words
Are NOT
Intended to cut
My words
Are to instruct
You SEE
DO YOU See?
It's all about SHE
SHE needs you
In more ways than you will ever understand
YOU
You have NO idea what she is going through
Yet YOU want HER to figure it out ALONE
ALONE???
THINK about this…
See YOU…
Are playing dangerous games with the hearts of the women you lure… and when you don't get your way you try to punish them. You are the one who USES - - you USE women… You ABUSE women…
I'm here~
AND I see right through you~
I'm onto you~
Punishing
Disrespecting
Never lifting, hugging, holding
The small one
The innocent one
The beautiful one
The one who will love you the longest
The one who will be there forever
Long after the emails, im's and text messages STOP
SHE
The one you ignore
SHE
Will always be there
See ME
I wasn't sent for you
I was SENT FOR HER
You busy focusing on your prince
The one you are raising to take the thrown
The one who will continue what you've started
You CLAIMING to be
So FILLED
With love
And honesty
But none of THAT
Is for the little one~
She fends for herself
Because she doesn't give you what you need
YOU with No regard or love for women
The definition of sexism
At its worst
YOU are at your best
"I see right through you / I walk right through you"
But the little one should not be punished or cheated she is a queen in the making. And as you continue to allow her to wander in darkness KNOW and BELIEVE and TRUST ME WHEN I SAY that she will pick up the necessary armor to protect herself while YOU are so busy spending time with your cyber connections focusing on all the women you THINK YOU have fooled.
I see right through you~
Do they know you write them all the same messages?
I bet they believe they're special
You have them convinced
But the little one
Does she believe she's special?
Have you told her?
Do you write her lovely prose?
HE
The ONE who gives nothing
Has their hearts
Their minds
But they mean nothing to him
It's a game…
The little one
What about her heart?
I see right through you~
So my message to YOU
My beautiful DAUGHTER
Is that I was sent
Sent for you
I was sent to share secrets
You will find me or someone like me
SOON
I will come to you in dreams
You will learn small one
To SEE and DECIPHER the truth
You TOO will learn
To see right through him
In all the forms he will arrive
You too will learn to walk right through him
What I didn't say and perhaps should have is that you deserve and will have so much better than the man who has your heart.
You will learn
You will learn
You will say
"Don't fuck with me~"
"I come in peace but I'm fast and furious and I take NO ONES shit!"
HE
This man who has no value for women
Raising children
Playing the victim
Piss't that a woman
That a woman
That this woman
Took his manhood
His essence
Punishing the little one
One of my daughters
Daughter,
That's how he works
Don't be fooled
That's how he brings the women in
He'll get angry when you don't fall for his game
And ME –
Best BELIEVE that I am not one of the desperate ones
What he doesn't SEE
Is that HE
Is taking what's most valuable to you
My dear daughter
Your INNOCENCE
YOU are my Cielo
KNOW that I'm here when you're ready
I will be here with your arsenal
HE doesn't care about what you need
And to HE
I say
Fuck you
You can't keep the truth from her
Daughter you will stop
You will stop
You will stop
Looking for IT in HE
You will stop
Wanting that love that HE will never give you
And that you deserve
I offer my writing today to the DOTR and all of the daughters…. Specifically the little girl - - my daughter Cielo~
If you have messages for her - - please leave them~
Peace~
No comments:
Post a Comment