There is NO TIME TO WASTE!

Written Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Bathing in my blessings~

Today I am reminding myself who I AM.

I AM fierce…  

This is my meditation this week… that I AM FIERCE~

There is a reason and significance behind everything that I do. There is nothing I do without an INTENTION.

The intention behind me blogging this week my SELF PORTRAITS is that I want to remind myself everyday of how FIERCE I AM.

This might sound vain but to me it isn’t. For a long time… exactly one year I have forgotten how fierce I really am. Fierceness in how I move in the world… fierceness in my writing… fierceness with the people I surround myself with… fierceness in my life! And I AM FIERCE!

I FORGOT to REMEMBER.

I forgot to remember the truth of who I am and all the wonderful things that I have done and continue to do in the world.

I realized a few days ago that I forgot that I had written a book. I WROTE MY FIRST BOOK and self published it. And for a long time I completely acted like it was no big deal. Like that wasn’t FIERCE of me????

I WROTE A BOOK.

Exactly one year ago… that’s FIERCE!

The anniversary of my memoir, Finding Your Force A Journey to LOVE was August 6^th several weeks ago… and I didn’t even acknowledge it, nor have I really celebrated fully that accomplishment.

Things always have a way of bringing me back here to this place. I am always called back to the source. I am always reminded to go back to the FORCE! I am always called to come back to the source inside of me that holds the truth. I am called to the place where all the answers are. I am called to stillness… to peace. I am called to the truth of me and the law of mind. That law that states that what I say in thought is what I believe!

What do I believe to be the truth of me?

September 11^th, 2001~ this is my birthday as a writer 11 years ago today!

I believe it was a Tuesday. I was driving in my blue Kia driving to Bacardi in Miami, Florida…

The first plane hit…

Then the 2^nd…

Frozen

Paralyzed

That’s what happens when something traumatic happens… we freeze… we stay in shock, we’re numb. We blame the world. We get angry. Some become filled with hate…

Myself…

I turned that devastatingly painful moment into something powerful… something positive…

I did not want to leave this place without leaving something significant behind. I wanted to make my mark. I wanted my beautiful daughter to know I didn’t waste my life away. The truth of the matter is that I wanted to prove all those teachers and people wrong… those who told me that I would never be anything. I wanted to prove to ME how I great I really am… despite all the things I heard to the contrary. I wanted to convince myself of how important I AM to the world and that the story that I have to tell… IS a story worth telling!

September 11^th was the event… the moment that transformed my life.

It was the moment that pushed me to make a choice. It was the moment where I would decide to not waste anymore time because today is ALL I have.

This is what I am reminding myself of today…

I live for TODAY!

I will be in TODAY!

I am not worrying about tomorrow, the past, my future… today is all I have and there is NO TIME TO WASTE!

And so it is~

I dedicate this blog post to my cousin Luis Antonio Diaz RIP~ Happy Birthday primo I know that you are with me always… you inspire me… you are one my guardian angels… you are missed. I love you. 

(Also for Luis Antonio JR, Jasmine, Alyssa and Edison his children who are his legacy ... I know he is proud of you guys...I LOVE YOU!) 

This blog is also dedicated to the families of those lost during September 11^th.