“What’s
up mom?”
“I’m
in love with a woman… I’m gay!”
You
looked at me and said, “Are you sure momma?”
“Yes!
I am sure.”
“Are
you happy?”
“Yes…
I’m very happy!”
“If
you’re happy… then I’m happy for you. That’s cool!!! My momma’s gay.” You
smiled and hugged me. Your opinion and approval was the only one that mattered
to me. Once I came out to you I felt free. I was liberated. I was so excited
about this new chapter of my life. It was like I was born again. Everything was
new to me. It always felt like there was just one piece missing to my puzzle
and now I finally figured it out.
The
moment I came out to you was one of the most special days of my life. The
moment that I accepted that I was a lesbian was a moment of COMPLETION. It felt
like I was finally a complete being. I wanted to share it the world. I wanted
to shout it from the highest building. Once I knew that I had your love and support,
I figured everyone else would just follow. I believed that the entire family
would love me anyway.
We
were in Washington, DC for the weekend. I was on the phone with abuela and I just
came right out with it, “Mami can I ask you a question? Que tu piensas de
relaciones entre mujer y mujer? What do you think about women relationships?”
“Are
you asking about lesbian relationships?” she responded in total shock.
“Yes
mami. What do you think about gay relationships?”
“Bueno
mi hija? I have nothing against gay people. You know that my hairdresser in NY
was gay, but I could never accept someone gay in my family. It’s against the
bible. Women are made for men.” Then she started quoting excerpts from the
bible to me. As she spoke all I kept thinking was that for my entire life I’d
never seen her open a bible once and now she was telling me exactly where it
says in the bible that being gay is a sin. I decided that coming out to her
during that conversation was a bad idea. I needed to wait for the right time. Excerpt from: ~Finding Your Force ~
I wrote in my journal today “My entire life
feels like a COMING OUT story!” I feel like I am constantly coming out in some
way or to someone. Join us for a wonderful conversation and workshop being
offered at PACE University.
Where: PACE University,
New York City Campus,
One Pace Plaza, New York, NY 10038
When: Thursday, October 18th
Time: 10:00am – 3:00pm
PLEASE
JOIN ME FOR TWO AMAZING WRITING WORKSHOPS I WILL OFFERING:
Part 1: Women Writing the World ~ Writing Workshop –
FREE WORKSHOP ~ 10/28/12 6pm-8pm
To register and
for more information please email: findingyourforce@gmail.com
In
your email please include the following:
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Email:
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Part 2: Writing with Intention ~ 6 classes on
Nov. 11, 18, 25 and Dec. 2, 9, 16
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