Day 23: 40 Days~
After spending a
few hours today watching a marathon of the Gilmore
Girls (a show that totally reminds me of my daughter) I decided to not
waste anymore time and step to the page.
I began my day
as I always do with my meditative practice and as I sat in stillness I asked
Spirit: What would you have me know
today?
The word that
kept rising for me was TIME.
Followed by the
sentence: STOP WASTING TIME!
This was a direct order. There was an image that kept coming up
for me in meditation that made me smile—it was the moments around how I came to
write my memoir. What rose for me was the moment that led to me completing my
memoir. I was reminding myself of the final days of completion. Once I had read
everything I had ever written it was time to begin. I thought about how I
organized and prepared for writing this story. I meditated on how I decided the
best way it was for me to write the story, one moment at a time, one memory at
a time, one year at a time, one scene at a time, and one chapter at a time. How
in the end I had 40+ individual documents for all 40 chapters. I sat with the
task of writing one chapter of my life… one day at a time.
Sometimes as
writers we can get overwhelmed and not know where to begin – we spend so much
time… wasting time… instead of writing we get fixated on researching or reading
other writers work. We might get lost in organizing and planning… and while all
of this is necessary and part of the writer’s process—it can be all consuming…
time consuming! If we are not careful we can use this process as a form of
procrastination keeping us from the real task of actually writing!
There has to
come a point when we get up and sit in front of the page to write. We don’t
have a moment to waste. This is what I am meditating on. How writing for me is
really a matter of life and death and that I mustn’t waste any time. This is
how we should step to the task of those things that are most important to us.
Writing for me is not some easy, frivolous, carefree, or irresponsible task –
it’s coming at it with everything I have. It’s getting the writing done one story
at a time. This is what I am meditating on today. How I forced myself to not
waste anymore time and write my memoir. This is how I live my life now understanding
and recognizing how precious time is and for this knowing I am so grateful.
My favorite quotes during meditation from
This Thing Called You, by Ernest Holmes:
“Spirit holds nothing from you. To
believe that God refuses the good you desire is to deny the goodness of God. It
is a refusal to accept the profound conclusion of the one who said, “It is done
unto you as you believe.”
“This is the story of your life, and of
every man’s life. Just keep right on knocking at the doorway of your consciousness
until every “no” becomes a “yes” every negation an affirmation, every fear a
faith.”
“If you listen to peace you will
experience it. If you listen for truth you will hear it. If you listen to power
you will receive it. If you listen to wholeness you will discover it.”
I AFFIRM:
Wherever I go the way is always prepared
for me, made perfect, immediate, direct, and easy and the right people always
show up.
Every opportunity is here for my
wholeness and my greatest good.
Every door is open to me.
All that comes from me is loving, truth,
kind, joy-filled and gentle.
All that comes to me is loving, truth,
kind, joy-filled and gentle.
And so it is~
Aché
Excerpt from
Finding Your Force A Journey to Love~
I recently
finished reading, The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho for like the 4th time. Each time I’ve
picked it up I’ve been in a new place in my life and something in my life
always draws me back to this book. So when I picked up the book this time it
was a way for me to check in with myself. To remind myself of what I needed at
this point to go forward on this journey. It helps me confirm that I AM on my
journey or pushes me in the right direction if I seem to fall off. On two
different occasions I have been in romantic relationships while reading The Alchemist.
It seems like when things are going great in my life, when I’m making progress,
while I’m moving forward, I tend to attract things that seem wonderful. While
these things seem amazing on the outside they also have served to move me away
from my journey—away from my Personal Legend.
I had to
ask myself, how do I continue on my journey towards my personal legend while
building a relationship? How do I NOT allow for distractions to take me off
track? How do I NOT allow for things to enter my life and move me away from my
journey? How does my journey get altered? And is it always for the better? What
is my role in it? What do I need to understand here? What is my lesson? What I know for certain is that every
person that I meet on this journey I am meant to meet. Everything that I
experience on this journey I am meant to experience (good and bad -- especially
the bad). Sometimes while on this journey there are people you have to let go
of in order to move forward.
The journey
teaches us how to turn our dreams into reality. Reminding us that there are
many tools we must pick up along the way. Tools that we learn from others,
learn in school, pick up from elders, read in books, hear in songs and get from
TV. The most important tool I think any of us can pick up on the journey is
PATIENCE. Patience is very necessary on the journey. Somehow we forget this or
fail to practice patience. We walk with this sense of urgency and frustration
that what we want hasn’t arrived. This lack of patience, lack of faith because
we want things in the immediate, we want it now looking for fast results in the
present.
While I
was walking aimlessly lost in the city I started to think about the people I
have met on my journey. Those who are in my inner circle and just associations
I have made along the way. People can get real comfortable with the US they’re
used to. People aren’t always ready for that change in us. They will not always
be welcoming and supportive. They will want the old Alicia - straight Alicia.
They accepted that Alicia. The new Alicia makes them uncomfortable. When you’re
doing that inner work and start to change the people around you sometimes will
no longer fit who you’re becoming. They will want the old you because it’s safe
for them. It’s safe because they don’t have to look at themselves.
When
you’re on that journey of finding your own personal legend it might feel
lonely. People who are not living their dreams won’t know how to support you in
reaching yours. There are people who will try to convince you that it is
impossible to realize your personal legend. HOW DARE WE GO IN SEARCH OF OUR
PERSONAL LEGEND? There have been countless people who have told me that my
writing is silly and not a real job. They will want to fill us with self-doubt
projecting their own fears of achieving or reaching their own potential. And in
the face of all those who doubt you – you MUST continue to prepare your spirit
and your will to carry on. It takes a lot to continue on the journey. You must
honor what you’ve been called to do… but first you must figure out what that
is.
"And
when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve
it." The Alchemist
~ from
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